I find myself sitting here wondering what is wrong with me.
I get myself into situations I shouldn't get into. When it becomes clear I should get out, do I? No, I get myself in deeper. I fall worse in love, I get more attavhed, I get angrier at a person, whatever the case is the result is the same, I know what I should do and I never do it.
I push to learn things that I know I don't want to know, things that I know will hurt me, but I don't let it be, I push and push until I finally know, and then regret the fact that I do.
I make decisions I know I'll regret later, but that never stops me. I make mistakes that I KNOW are mistakes, over and over and over.
Don't get me wrong, I TRY to avoid doing these things. I don't try to screw up my life, I don't want to get myself more and more hurt. I just do. I know this can't be right, can't be normal. I know most people aren't like this. It feels like something inside me is majorly broken, and it only seems to be getting worse.
I need to fix it, but I don't have the slightest clue how, nor even what it is I really need to fix. I'm completely lost, I feel like I can't even trust myself anymore.
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 Feb 12 2007, 9:14 pm
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#2 Feb 12 2007, 10:44 pm
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Dalze wrote:
Not to be cliché or anything, but time heals all wounds. you whore, everytime on of my byond pals has a crisis, i use that line. BITER! but yeah, dont trip about it gordy. Shit happens sometimes, ull grow out of it soon enough =] | |
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#3 Feb 12 2007, 10:50 pm
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You seem to be speaking as if this is a recent development....
I've been this way for years. I've been trying to fix this for years, and it has just gotten worse. It's not something I'll grow out of, it is not something that will work itself out, it is something that I need to fix, and soon, I just don't know how. | |
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#7 Feb 13 2007, 2:02 pm
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Boo hoo, so I'm emo. Get a life prick.
And Dalze, I'm 21. | |
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#8 Feb 13 2007, 2:17 pm
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Don't fix it. Let me rephrase that. You don't need to fix it. The world needs your type of evil.... :D
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#9 Feb 13 2007, 3:07 pm
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well, how about seeing a psychiatrist? That helped me.....for the most part.
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I always do basically the exact opposite of what I know should do.
The way I deal with it is.... well, I guess I don't.
Just try not to worry about it.
Not to be cliché or anything, but time heals all wounds. Just let everything run it's course and try not to mess up, and everything will work itself out.
Believe me, I know.