The wedding plans are off for now, and I assure you, niether of us are happy with it. Particularly not Jesse. I've made some terrible mistakes, and unfortunately I've been making those mistakes with the one person in my life that matters most to me. My fear of her hurting herself drove me absolutely insane to the point where whenever she got in one of her "low moods", I'd try anything and everything to bring her back up. Not such a big deal, until I'm making my proposal earlier than I'd planned, and agreeing to a wedding date I have doubts of being able to make. Those kinds of things NEED to come from ME alone, not a desire to do so but a drive because of fear.
I feel terrible about all of this, but the damage, it seems, has already been done, and I can't seem to do anything to make ammends for it. It really hurts me to see her so down, and every effort I make to console her is just in vain.
I felt that it's my place to announce this to anyone who might have heard about it on here, as I'm sure it's embarassing for her to tell others that her wedding has been postponed.
Feb 27 2006, 5:12 pm (Edited on Mar 8 2006, 5:06 am)