Well my mum came in to tell me to go to bed- I have an exam in the morn. So she watched me shut it down and then came to say goodnight as I got into bed.
I had been feeling kinda listless and emotionless after spending 10 am to 10 pm working on Hyper Uber Robo Dancing (I've turned in from a barely working test into a real game now.).
So she told me the story of "how they cut her open about this time [src.age] years ago", etc- like she always does the night before my birthday.
Then she looked at me and said she'd like it if I gave her some love and affection back, and it was as if she was doing all the running.
I said okay, then said night, then lay down for a while.
I've now learnt not to make evaluations of my entire life based while being slightly depressed. I mean, I'm almost always going to feel different in the morning.
And that made me realise that if nothing I said at that current time had any importance, then for that particular moment of my existence I was a worthless nobody, that not even myself would listen to.
=) Then I started feeling empty inside, blah blah. "Oh, me and Rachel never talk, it's always kissing", and so on.
But then I had a relevation.
I realised the one true reason I was depressed-
I hadn't looked at porn for 2 whole days.
Which is partially why I'm online right now. <_< >_>
Uh...yeah. Bye. Gotta go...check...my...mail. =)
*Oh, and edit*
Happy birthday to me for the 20th!
I am 16! =)</_>