The poor man's Thomas Eddison

Today was the official welcome home ceremony for my brigade, I got to be in the sun for almost 2 hours for the horse and pony show. It was fun and I got really sun burnt. However I did get to ride a really fun ride today and I destroyed my friend at bumper cars. He really can't drive them at all.

Then tonight we got a special appearance from Hinder. Only problem was that my friends are idiots. They got piss ass drunk and decided that they were going to drive to the concert. So I had to do the right thing and not drink myself into a stupor. I hate them all so much. But that's just life I suppose, now they're out getting pissed with the band and I'm stuck at home watching my friends wife and kids while I get drunk. It sucks, but whatever.

Well. I finally made it back to Germany about a week ago now. Things are going well, I'm on schedule to get out of the Army in less than three months, if all goes well I'll be out before I turn 26 but just barely. Unfortunately though just like the last time I came back from downrange I have lost pretty much all of my motivation. It's really weird, about a month before we left I received a visit from a powerful muse. I was drawing again, writing, programming, all of it. Everything creative that I've always loved doing I was able to do in spades. Then we leave and I've got nothing no creative mojo at all. Worse than that, even the idea of making something holds no joy. The simple act of writing this post is a huge effort. It's really quite strange I suppose it's somewhat similar to postpartum depression, something that's been a big part of my life for more than a year now is gone never to return. It's kind of weird to be thinking about the war in Iraq like that, if you can even call it a war anymore, but that's not my place to decide and I do digress.

I will be going home on leave in a few days to go and see my family and find out how everything has changed in the fourteen months that I've been gone. Let me tell you, things in Germany have changed a lot while I was away, I'm a little anxious to see what's happened in Texas in the last three and a half years. However I will be starting college this fall for game design and programming so I'm somewhat proud of myself for actually making it that far instead of still being a lazy stoner living at home and working at taco bell while getting absolutely nothing done.

All in all everything's going the way it should be going I just have to pick up my shit and find my own place again, nothing I haven't done at least ten times before. But I'm tired of picking up the pieces of my life, it wears on you after a while. I do surely pray that this is the last time I have to, but even then I know full well that it will not be.

In some other news I tampered around with the rpgmaker programs and I have to say that for what they do they are quite powerful will a decent if small library of games out. While they fall behind Byond in shear power of customization, they make up for it with the ability to throw together an Rpg in a relativity short time, longer for a good game, but you get the idea. That being said though I still prefer Byond's Dream Suite.

I would really like to seriously get back into drawing, maybe even put together a little webcomic of some sort. There was a time when I was really good at it, but that was years ago with much more time to be able to devote to practicing. Only problem is I have a lot of great ideas (In my own mind.) for how to start a story, I never know how I want them to end, and I don't even like running a nebulous free form campaign for Dungeons and Dragons, let alone just start writing and watch it go all kinds of rediculous.

Anyway I should probably go so uh... Later Taters.

Well it's my first post in some time, but thats just the way it goes.

I have returned to the Iraqi desert once again. The weather here is much like it is back home in Texas, only less humid. Although I suppose that makes it even more barrable.

Only to add to the awesomeness, I logged in to byond and there sat my game online. Talk about a supprise. I really should get off my lazy ass and work on it. Perhaps when I get done with my college application. Perhaps.


Well, thats all the time I have for now. But I'll be back before too very long.

Later taters.

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Okay, I don't know how many of you out there play WoW too, but I have like 7 characters on 2 different servers, one of them happens to be a female blood elf, and yes I am a man playing a female character. But thats not the story here, well not really.

I ran across this poor soul who was running around the ruins of silvermoon city without pants on. From the very beginning I was nothing but kind and helpful, going so far as to buy her some pants out of my own pocket and give them to her. Then I went about teaching her how to play the game from scratch. How to equip things, find and complete quests, arrange the hot keys. Pretty much how to play the whole damn game right. Well after about 3 or 4 hours of running with her and showing her around she found out that that I was a man running a female character and smooth flipped out on me. Dropped me from her in game friends list, called me a cross dressing gay man and generally berated me for the next 5 minutes.

Now I understand that it's not the most normal thing in the world to run around on video games playing opposite gender characters, but the lengths that this woman went to are just bewildering and infuriating. To treat someone like that after everything I had done for her, I... I don't have words to describe how I feel about it.

I'm not trying to defend the fact that of my 6-7 characters about half of them are female. I don't really care what you have to say about that, I am just a pissed of man who needs to rant because I don't have anything nearby to hit, HARD.

And thats all I really have to say for now.

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Wow, I can't believe that Final Frailties actually has more than 1000 downloads. It took a long time to get this far and I fell really proud of it. Granted I haven't worked on it in a while now, but never fear and stuff like that.

In other news I am still drawing and getting better at it all the time. I am starting character sketches for a Final Fantasy 6 webcomic based around Celes Chere before she was branded a traitor by the Empire. It should turn out pretty well If I can get a decent script cobbled together. Well here's hoping right.

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