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I know, I have been making more posts towards the end of my membership then the rest of the time put together but I have been into broadcasting my poems lately so here are two more.

If I Could Change

If I could change, I’d change for you,
Brighten the dark flames of my heart and soul,
Purify my body and mind,
Change the dark into light.

If I could change, I’d change for you,
Brighten my laugh,
Widen my smile,
Be happy instead of sad.

If I could change, I’d change for you,
You’re all I want, all I need,
The only thing I care about,
You are my world.

If you would change just for me,
The idea is sweet, but not what I want,
I love you for you, not what you could be,
Your heart is big, no matter what colour the flames burn
For when I’m with you, your heart burns so bright
It makes me feel warm and safe…
don’t ever change.


What I Am

The shadows of perfection fall far from my soul,
As the black flames of my heart burn bright,
The longer they burn, the darker they become,
Never to burn red again.

Purity falls four years too late,
As innocents shatters four years too soon,
My sister the pure and perfect,
My friend the reaper of innocents.

My tainted black heart yearns for the forbidden,
A lust, a need, for a love unheard of,
Secret, only known by the few and the one,
A love only revealed to the shadows.

The child of legends I am not,
Nor the child of untold evil,
Tainted and dark I may be, engulfed in the flames of the shadows inside
But I am what I am, truly just me.

If Only You Stayed

If only you stayed and did not leave me,
my soul would not be in dispair.
The shadows of the night filled with saddened wails,
the eternal darkness, shadows in my mind.

A wilting rose, not red but black,
petels falling slowly to the ground,
lost in the dark, claimed by the shadows,
your soul, your spirit, imprisoned in the rose.

My heart aches, my soul yerns
for the path we walked together to be walked,
but the path, engulfed in the flames of desolation,
never to be walked again.

And so I say my final farewell
for we may never be together again,
I wish with all my might we may
but alas I am here and you're not even on earth,
spirit floating in the endless night,
forever and always I will be your's
and I hope we may meet agian in the shadowed night
when I too am claimed by the dark.

If Only You Stayed

If only you stayed and did not leave me,
my soul would not be in dispair.
The shadows of the night filled with saddened wails,
the eternal darkness, shadows in my mind.

A wilting rose, not red but black,
petels falling slowly to the ground,
lost in the dark, claimed by the shadows,
your soul, your spirit, imprisoned in the rose.

My heart aches, my soul yerns
for the path we walked together to be walked,
but the path, engulfed in the flames of desolation,
never to be walked again.

And so I say my final farewell
for we may never be together again,
I wish with all my might we may
but alas I am here and you're not even on earth,
spirit floating in the endless night,
forever and always I will be your's
and I hope we may meet agian in the shadowed night
when I too am claimed by the dark.

Yes, I acucaly wrote a poem that is not depressing or about something twisted in some way, shocking to those who know about my poetry so here it is.

If I Could Ask You

If I could ask you about happyness
would you tell me that it is a fake emotion?
That it is something we made up to mask suffering,
an illusion of the heart?
Yes I would.

If I could ask you about eternity,
would you tell me that nothing is forever?
That everything begins and ends
and nothing we can do will change that?
Yes I would.

If I could ask you about love,
would you tell me that it doesn't exist?
That it is something people only think they know,
something no human can understand?
Yes I would.

If I could ask you about me, us,
would you abandon all your beliefs?
Would you trust in love?
That our feelings of happyness are real?
That our passion can last an eternity?
Yes I would

Here is a poem I wrote as a kind of farewell thing to my BYOND membership...It may sound emo at the end but meh, I was randomly inspired in the middle of writting it so I just went with the flow.

Farewell

So much has happened, so much has changed,
we have done so much in this short time.
We have endured saaddness and sorrow,
shared so many laughs,
been together for good and bad,
supported each other.

This time I spent with all of you,
will always be remembered, always be special,
never forgotten, always true.
I am forever changed, for better or worse
I do not know, maybe never know.

Saddness overwhelming, As I prepare,
a long memorable journey soon ends,
when the clock strikes zero
I shall be gone.

YOur saddened cries, sorrows anger,
the trail we traveled cannot be returned,
flames engulf the only path back.

The darkness engulfs my spirit, my soul,
as I become one with the lifeless dark...

Farewell