The exams are over but i do not feel a sense of relief. The results of the exams are in mid august and if i have failed, then what comes next is a mystery, if i have passed, then life resumes as normal for 1 more year but i find myself asking the question "is this really what i want?" I found that last year was incredibly difficult and the following will only get harder. I don't know what career I want so I've just been trying to be as nonspecializing as i can, this might sound daft but I'm suffering from too much choice and i just don't know what to do.

Enough of that, get my PS3 fixed tomorrow and can finally play MGS4 I can't promise I'll understand the plot, but I can give it a go. In the meantime i should find a good anime or RPG to kill some time.

I am Allergic to the oil seed rape fields that grow near my house, it means i wake up with a headache and a head cold at the moment, really not good. 4th May will be bad, because i have 5 hours of exams, 3 chemistry and 2 economics, got some physics ones next week and the week after and then once i finish exams, i have another month of school before we break up for 5 weeks... o well i choose to do this so, it's all my fault, I'll try my best but I'm probably going to fail physics.

I appear to have lost my motivation, if anyone finds it please tell me. I just can't find anything i want to do, I'm just not getting the same satisfaction from playing games, doing work or anything.In other news only a month till more exams and on Monday I'll be doing my chemistry coursework practical (not prepared for at all) and next Friday I'll be doing loads of mock exams.(again screwed)I just can't shake the feeling that i don't want to be in full education anymore, maybe i need a gap year... although where funds for that will come from is beyond me. i give up with this blog, nooo motivation to write anymore

For some bizarre reason Keiko was kind enough to buy me a byond membership so thanks Keiko. I'm a lot busier than i used to be, We have this system in england called A level and to put it bluntly it's hard, i have to do lots of work and if i don't they'll just boot me off the course so, it's not good. i don't have much else to say at the moment.