So, like many others on BYOND I am backing out of my game. Kingdom Hearts Online Adventures is being thrown into a far away folder in the depths of my desktop for a while, maybe forever.
I'm not without my reasons though, I think I have been pretty blind these past few years on BYOND. Convincing myself that I can learn to code from source rips that are outdated and outclassed nowadays. This new self knowledge has been gained far too late in my time on BYOND, I wish I had spent these years actually learning BYOND coding and using guides instead of playing around with sources thinking I am a god of coding because I can add a Naruto clan or whatever. Instead of spending time causing petty dramas between myself and other developers I should be working on proving myself through my work, even now I should be working to actually have something cool to blog about instead of this post.
I felt I had to quit KH:OA because at this moment in time if I had carried on with it I may have ruined the coding that already existed, how could I have kept the coding consistently good when I don't even understand much of the coding myself.
I am going to attempt to get a finer and more fluent grip of the BYOND code by following guides, looking at the ref, and experimenting with my own coding. If I cannot make it as a developer I will just stick to being a player on BYOND.