Ok i just want to say everyone who tried to help:
Thank you very much for trying to help me from my own foolish actions and also thank you to everyone who had kind words for me as well!
I have actually managed to: sell a few things, do enough overtime, get enough help from Byond and keep myself from spending too much.
I needed to regain the money by May, And now thanks to everyone i'll scrape by well.
I have no where near enough money to start spending anything yet, but i have raised enough to match my previous overdraft which i completely overspent which the bank said i had to reacquire again.
So it's all good, By December i may be able to buy some memberships lol, or not... if i end up buying too many x-mas presents.
But anyway thank you all so much, no need to worry anymore, and i'm sorry for asking in the first place! it'll never happen again.